Jessi Jean

to live is to dream with eyes wide open.

Ever Feel Like Painting?

                A need to create. Design. Imagine…

I’ve missed writing this last week. Life seemed to demand all of me and more than I felt I could give. There was no time for blogging as I was closing up big class projects before Thanksgiving break, preparing for the interview at 9NEWS, driving to Denver and Loveland for my internship…and on & on… I am still waiting to hear back from 9NEWS (if you would, I would really appreciate your prayers for this opportunity). Anxious and trying my best to trust the Lord is where I write to you from today.

Yesterday, I spent the day relaxing and catching up with my Mom and Step-dad Andy. The Colts/Patriots game was on and Andy taught me more about the rules and strategies of football.  I’m trying to understand sports in their entirety as it is my dream to work in this field. I spent the rest of the day painting…

This was my creation…

An accurate description of my interior…

                I am random…all over the place. BOLD. Vibrant. Upside down and all turned around. I am here one minute and there the next. These paintings represent my heart in many ways. I put no prior thought into what I wanted to create before I began. This is just what came to be.

 This is my interpretation

Perhaps the birds pulling the tree up from the ground represents an inner strength…My strength comes solely from the Lord. When my life is not fully centered on Christ, I lose my rhythm and my strength fades. Life becomes unpredictable and seemingly unmanageable.  May we always remember:

 those who hope in the LORD
       will renew their strength.
       They will soar on wings like eagles;
       they will run and not grow weary,
       they will walk and not be faint.  –Isaiah 40:31

The bottom of the painting looks like the city… the direction the birds are flying and the direction my life is heading…THE BIG CITY! The top canvas is very abstract but does have some meaning…Purple and Black…the color of my dreams… Working for the Colorado Rockies! I know it will be a crazy, winding journey to get there but in its time, God-willing, it will happen.

The right of the painting illustrates the JOY I live with on most days. Excitement and energy fuel me. The ability to see the world in a positive light and appreciate all life’s little blessings is such a gift. I’m not able to do this every day but I certainly try.

 For I know the plans I have for you, declares the LORD,
       Plans to prosper you and not to harm you,
       Plans to give you a hope and a future.  –Jeremiah 29:11

Remembering this verse helps me see the world in different light and live with a unique sense of hope, liveliness, and enthusiasm:

A Sweet Release

Its good…really good to let it out..Whatever it is. For me, painting is a way to express the interior state of my heart and soul. Whether I understand whats going on inside me or not, letting it out is a very sweet release. Putting it on a canvas is my way of recogizning pain, joy, anxiety, enthusiam, fear, frustration, and delight. I feel good after creating this jumbled mess of art.

May you also experience the sweet release of your soul in some form…





           Create, dream, and imagine….For these things you were created…


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One thought on “Ever Feel Like Painting?

  1. Peggy Cowan on said:

    Always follow your dreams – dreams are what life and success are made of. I will always follow you as you follow your dreams – I love you more than tongue can tell. Mom

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